Sunday, 15 December 2013

Bitterness

This condition of mine, it's like it shines a light where there wasn't one before - some things become so obvious.  So many of the cliches, it turns out, are true.  None more so than - life is short.

And we spend so much of our time on pointless, needless activities.  A couple you know are in the midst of a painful, and incredibly bitter divorce.  You see how one of them is acting, every action designed to cause hurt to the other, and you think, my God.  The time, the effort, the money, the cost in emotional expenditure, is unreal - and unnecessary.  You see how the legal system is being used by one of them, every action twisted.  And if there's one thing that your time as a trainee solicitor taught you, it's that no-one comes out of litigation the better for it - the best you can hope for is to be put back into the situation you should have been in the first place.

And another couple are splitting up and dealing with it relatively amicably, like grown ups.  You're lucky that you're not, never will be, in that situation, but it's obvious which is the better route.

And more generally, it's easy, necessary, in your situation to let go of old feuds.  You realise there is no need for them, no time, nothing to be gained.

It's incredibly freeing.  Not that you should necessarily forget when people are mean, or cruel, or dishonest, or whatever it might be.  Let's face it, there are a lot of people out there who seek out weakness, want to take advantage of it.  So you can't be silly about this.  But all you've got time for these days is to focus on the positives.  But really, if only you'd known, that's all you ever had time for, anyway.